The truth is a hard thing to grasp.  I actually did an interview with a professor of mine, Dr. Fisher.  I asked him about how often we lie with each other and why it matters.  He blatantly stated that from what he has seen, no one really wants to know all of the truth, it is too overwhelming.  We lie all of the time to everyone around us.  Dr. Fisher said that there isn't a day that goes by that we do not lie to someone.

As I was going through the interview notes, I started realizing something.  A lot of this study of mine has been about others and how much they lie.  I started to look inward.  I am not to thrilled at what I have found.  This may or may not be true for everyone, but I have lied to myself in order to protect my envisioned idea of who I'm supposed to be.  I do not always lie to myself in blatant ways, sometime I simply push things in another direction.  I don't like this at all.  It became very evident tonight how much I have lied to myself over the years.  Things that I have lied about include my abilities  my strength, and the very ideas of who God said I am and am going to be.  This will be the next step in this crazy, stupid journey.